"The only thing we have to fear is fear it'self - nameless, unreasoning, unjustified, terror which paralyzes needed efforts to convert retreat into advance." --- FDR - First Inaugural Address, March 4, 1933
[Her lips trembled as if it had a lot to say, but no words came. The thoughts traveled down to her throat and choked her. And so, she let her tears explain.............]
I wished they could open my mind and know for themselves what is wrong. They speak without understanding. Here I am shouting at the top of my lungs about my problem and there they are telling me general facts about life. At the end of the day I am left with a label that spells ‘helpless’.
All I feel is the pressure at the bottom of my mind. I cannot find the words to describe the issue but I hope I can give an early warning of its eruption.
I would love to cure my fear...fears. I want to. I try to. I really do, but nothing has changed. I am not sure when or if it would. But I really want to and I really am trying. That is nothing more I can say to assure and emphasize that I still am fighting the battle within me.
Fear, I realize, is an emotion that is not easily understood. They always wondered why I fear so many things. They just do not get it and I am certain they would not. Not until they go to the extent of viewing it from my point. Only then will they know that it is a fear. It is nameless, it is unreasoned and it maybe unjustified, but it is a terror that is paralyzing me. And, yes I need help; lots of it.
[She continues to stand there...tearing away, waiting in hope for a sign that offers not a solution but a soft support...]
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